a very bad thing to do is to feel worthless.
to value that feeling. let it exist.

to feel like you are less than anybody.

i know nobody is better but i spent so many years investing on being invisible that it is a permanent fight to be a real person.

to laugh at all my fears, ignore people, not to care. i'm still learning.

and i know it is not to be bad, just to focus on myself really.

but i have to keep repeating to myself that i am not behaving badly...that i still love everybody...oh...

so tiring...

in one second i say a mental fuck everybody and in the other i apologyze....

peace gets really lost inside me.


it's hard to live beyond the end of the world....